Why doesn’t anyone really explain how fast time goes? I mean sure there are jokes made, memes sent, and birthday parties every year but that doesn’t mean that we took our youth seriously. Now, most will laugh at me and tell me that I am crazy for feeling old at the newfound age of twenty-two, but in all honesty, I never thought I would be this old. Does this mean I thought I was going to die young? No. It does mean that when you are twelve or seventeen you never really take into consideration that one day you’re not going be as young as you are at that moment. The truth is, it only gets older from here.
In all honesty, this isn’t a piece about fear of the future. This is a piece about realizing that forever young really is just a song. Sure you can feel young for as long as you like, but one afternoon over a cup of Trader Joe's coffee we are going to realize that we are no longer able to consider ourselves young. Why is it that we spend most of our adolescent lives yearning for people to find us mature? Younger women lust blindly after older men, searching for that maturity validation. Young men buy elaborate cars when they can’t even drive stick. As someone diagnosed with a case of chronic baby-face syndrome, my whole life all I ever wanted was for someone to tell me that I look two years older than what I actually was. Not because I wanted to look old, but because I didn’t want to be seen as a child.
Although I still party, bar hop, and spend my money on mindless things, I am really starting to feel old. Just the other day I saw that my credit score went up and I almost shrieked out of joy. Six years ago I would’ve thought that a credit score was the number of times you swiped a credit card. Now I pay rent, car insurance, WiFi bills, and even to park my car (perks of living next to the crowded neighborhood of downtown Los Angeles). Although sad that my childhood has officially been over for years now, I find myself excited about what getting older means. Instead of looking forward to prom or being able to drink (legally), I am looking forward to the start of my career and maybe even a family. I know that I am still very young and have so much to go through, but nothing makes me feel older than when some kid tells me that what used to be my favorite song is a throwback. No one really believes how fast time flies, but I guess that’s because we're all just trying to have fun.